Changing My Relationship With the Passing Year

I’ll be honest, my 40’s have been far from ecstatic.

They have been hard. Fucking hard. All manner of rough comings out — from polyamory to being psychic. Reinventing myself as a writer. Revisioning then rebuilding the kind of experience I wanted in publishing (and I’m still so so so far away from it, but that’s okay.) Fumbling through what it means to be multi-passionate and how to do business when you’re not flying just one kite.

There was the navigation of high school with a chronically ill son, then making my own way through years of chronic illness born from more than a decade of chronic stress and isolation.

For so many years I felt as though I was slow-falling through any sense of solidity or certainty. I tumbled down an endless Alice abyss.

And I hated it.

I railed.
I fought.
And I fucking resented everything.
Endlessly.

I couldn’t wait to get beyond each fucked up year and get a fresh start. The thing was, I never did. It was like stepping in dog shit and treading it from one year to another.

I wanted to stop feeling trapped and tortured by my years.

That liberation began with changing the relationship I had with the passing year.

Four Quick Hacks I Embraced

1. I quit shitting on the year that had shat on me. 

I stopped labelling years bad and just let them be neutral. I mean, you’ve heard it, or even said it yourself:

“Can’t wait for this year to be finished.”

“Shit year!”

“This year can fuck off.”

Three years of a pandemic has had us collectively saying some version of “Twenty-Fucking-Twenty…”

While this might provide short term rapport with all the other people also pissing on the year, the thing is, if you do this, you take the resentment, animosity, grief, disappointment and whatever else the year stirred up … you take into the new year.

You repeat patterns.
You miss a fresh start.

2. I honoured all of the year by getting curious.

This let me see if there was something, anything, beneath what was going on. Especially the hard-as-shit stuff. Attempting to see if, then how,  I was changing: growing and adapting in positive ways to the challenges.

It let me gentler in how I perceived the hardships I’d gone through. It let me make conscious, specific choices about what I wanted to leave behind.

In the beginning it was hard to see them. As the years have gone one they are more apparent.

3. I  got discerning

This meant celebrating the peak experiences alongside the obstacles, dead ends, frustrations, the heart breaks and unexpected failures. It allowed me to rehabilitate my focus away from  obsessing on everything hard or not going my way.

I started to acknowledge it was like that some of the time, but not all the time.

4. I let my years be multi-faceted.

I embraced gloriously imperfect years which lead me out of two-dimensional monochromatic shit storms of misery that could be summed up in one or two catchy words.

Few years are all good or all bad.

Even the worst years have a few shiny spots in them if we’re open to search for them.

A Clean Start

Few people can simply wake up with a clean slate by sheer force of will and 8 hours of sleep between Dec 31 and Jan 1.

Spending time with my year, holding it lightly and honouring all parts, let me cut the passing year away cleanly. Itt was a huge relief to enter a new year without the other one hissing and spitting at my heels.

Best of all, I stopped dragging the old year into the new as the forever compare-and-contrast. The new year got to be bold, beautiful and full of potential on its own terms.

The Thresholds Tarot Readings

In 2021, I created the Thresholds Tarot Readings out of this practice.

I wanted to provide a space for clients to intentionally review the passing year with an open-heart and mind. Through the cards, questions arise to give clients a unique journey through (and perspective on) their year.

These 90-minute readings are super-charged and provide insights into the themes, peak experiences and growth points of ‘22, with guidance and suggestions for celebrating and cutting lose the year that was.

Places are limited.

Bookings are recommended sooner rather than later to get the best date for the farewell you and your year deserve.

Schedule Appointment

Thresholds Readings Open for the 22/23 Bridge

Thresholds #22 by Jodi Cleghorn — cut from Women Who Run with the Wolves — project developed with Christina Hira

The practice of honouring all of my year inspired the creation of The Thresholds Tarot Readings in 2021.

I wanted to hold space for clients to unpack their year open-heartedly, with potential to gain a new perspective on how the year had unfolded. To see with uncommon clarity the highs that might have been missed and the gifts in the difficulties. To pattern-check in a unique way and leave the reading with a concrete path out of one year and into the next.

I tested the new reading with a friend and we dived into unexpected places, even though we’d talked and drawn cards for a whole year together. We found richly glorious and horrific stories. I pulled up questions which illuminated themes and patterns she hadn’t considered, leaving her with clear stepping stones out of ’21 into ’22.

But 2021 found me in a strange between place — still birthing pregnant babies (ie. timing all wrong so what I created could not be effectively nurtured once it was released).

I still had a permanent residence in the liminal and hadn’t yet considered a bigger life for myself. Much less what it might mean or look like, personally and professionally. All that has changed over the course of ‘22

This means I’m ready to bring all of me (this powerful New Me who is recently qualified and full of enthusiasm ) to meet all of you at the table for the 2022 round of Thresholds Reading.

I’m making sure the offering goes out into the world with plenty of time for everyone to book a slot before ‘22 slides out the door.

Book and Thresholds Reading

These 90-minute readings are super-charged and provide insights into the themes, peak experiences and growth points of ‘22, with guidance and suggestions for celebrating and cutting lose the year that was.

Places are limited.

Book now to get the best date for the farewell you and your year deserve.

Biggest Love,

✨ Jodi

PS: I’m also  offering Year Opening readings in January and February, to help future map 2023 with you.

Book both now for a $20 discount.

P.P.S: If you are in the Brisbane area I love to share readings at my kitchen table over tea and cake. If you are in the surrounds (Gold or Sunshine Coast, Ipswich etc)  and would like to host several readings, I’m more than willing to travel for 2 or more in-person readings. I’ll also consider opening Sundays for readings if the demand is there in December.

Contact me below if this might be you.

 

The High Priestess Tarot Card – Meaning In Motion


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THE HIGH PRIESTESS

🔮 We have made habits of turning outward for advice and outsourcing our wisdom to others. The High Priestess reminds us we are the first and most powerful experts on our lives.

🙋🏻‍♀️She invites us into our inner knowing and gently encourages us to trust the answers we find when we turn inward. We are our Wise Self, even in the moments when we fear we know nothing.

🫀She is the holy aspect that everyday life can force to the sidelines from sheer busyness and the need to keep our heads above the water.

🍎 She is the pause and the sweetness that greets us in those moments when return to ourselves, even if that’s just sixty seconds stolen in the toilet or the stairwell at work.

🧚‍♀️ She is the conduit of feminine blessing and magick in all we touch if we dare to let that be.

🌕 She is a beautiful energy to be with, however feels congruent and joy-filled, to celebrate this week’s full moon in Capricorn.

Image: The High Priestess by Charlie Claire Burgess (The Fifth Spirit Tarot, first edition)


📓 JOURNAL PROMPTS

🔑 What are you ready to unlock?
🪄 What magic calls to you?
🛤 What is the middle place between spaces of black and white?
🪧 How do you lay equal claim to the light and the darkness? And how it feels in each?
☀️ What do you create from starlight? From sunlight?


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🎯 THE HIGH PRIESTESS IN THE ACTION

“At the centre of your being you have the answer, you know who you are and you know what you want.”
~ Lao Tzu

Honour your High Priestess by tuning into, and practising, your sacred yes and sacred no.

💫What is your sacred yes and no?

It’s the answer to a any question which rises up from within. It’s quiet at the start. Felt in the body. Often held in the heart.

It’s the knowing the logic brain will loudly shout over the top with rationality and social programming.

The sacred yes and no honour what’s most important to you (not necessarily others) when expressed aloud. This sacred practise is intrinsically linked to establishing and maintaining boundaries.

Listen to to what rises up inside you, intuitively, when you need to make a decision. Some people like to close their eyes. Get still. Silent. Or to place their hand on their heart.

If you’re unsure — program a necklace as a pendulum and let it help you hone your inner hearing/knowing of the sacred yes and no.


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🖊THE HIGH PRIESTESS IN POETRY

You were lost to yourself
within yourself
for lifetimes, for centuries
A half-formed echo
A skeleton missing bones
Compulsively course correcting but
having forgotten where you were
navigating to

In a moment of revelation
you saw light
you saw love
and you knew you had a home
though it had fallen from your consciousness
The course correcting that had once
tried to steer you back there
took you away
until you lost the memory
of where you were going
through a thousand wayward turns

Now fair winds whistle joyfully
across the axis of light
carrying you forward
and you navigate from the constellation
in your heart
Re-Turning
across the seas of the unknown-once-known
Following the siren call of home
Coming back to yourself

She has been patiently waiting on the shores
to see the dance of your sails on the horizon
She holds your light
She holds your love
She is you
and you are her
breaking open
together on the shores
of a new be-ing

Written March 20th, 2019

 


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🪞THE HIGH PRIESTESS IN REFLECTION

It has been an interesting week, observing the intersection/interplay/tension of magick, ritual and creation.

It feels very much The High Priestess sandwiched between The Magician and The Empress (energies I feel far more comfortable in!)

Three things from my week with The High Priestess:

🕯 I built an altar and surrendered into the magickal guidance of Anna Bellissima in creating myself a HyperSigil. This is my latest depth year foray — deepening into creating a future of my desire and designs.

🦴 This was an extension of me trying to spend more time in the light side of things, because I feel very comfortable in the shadows, excavating bones and wounds, but do very little then with the space I’ve made for myself. I feel the right kind of tingly after my first entry in my hypersigil and excited about the next one.

🔮 This! The tarot primer. I’m certain a different card would not have inspired me to experiment with leaning into my wisdom and sharing it this way. Thank you for all the fabulous and encouraging feedback.

🎈 Message me and share your three reflections for the week, any time over the weekend. I’d love to hear from you.


🫶🏻 SIGNAL BOOST

These woman pour higher knowing into their work.

🐇 Libby Fordham — Letters from the Hedge

🖊 Anna Bellissima — True Lies

🛁 Kristie Murphy — Freya’s Nourishment


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🎵 The High Priestess Outro

And lastly, a song to dance us into the weekend.

Apologies to any fans of the Steve Winwood classic. I found this version by pure accident following the thread of a lyric.

🪩Higher Love

Or ramp up the beat…

🙏🏻 Thank you for being here. Have a fabulous weekend.

I’ll see you next week.

Biggest love,
Jodi xxx

Written and shared, for the week 11th – 17th July, 2022

 

I am multi-passionate word witch who liberates people from self-limiting stories so they can redefine themselves and their lives.

Leveraging a combination of fiction, poetry, tarot and coaching, I offer guidance and practical support for people ready to excavate their shadows, meet their brightest ideas and shape present/future realties on their own terms.

I embolden souls to live their best lives now, utilising the quantum field of potential while holding the vulnerability of the human experience.

You can find more about working with me here  or book here.

 

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